Hitch Hiker

Driving to work today alongside of Hwy 29 was a very uncommon sight in Green Bay. There was an older man with a long salty beard, wearing a long black coat, sticking out his thumb to catch a ride. I felt like stopping, but never actually would. However, this hitch hiker struck some feelings in me. Today is my 25th birthday. And now that I am a quarter of a century old, one begins to evaluate where the years have gone. Coupled with this sentiment is all of the feelings brought out by the passing of Jerad's Grandmother, Ceil.

The hitch hiker reminded me that life is a journey and that we might know where we're going, but often we don't know how we're going to get there. Life's journey is sometimes at a screeching halt, and sometimes we are stuck along side that path with no way to go any place. We have to depend on the help of someone else to get from point A to point B. We move much slower along the road when we have to walk. We consider hitch hiking because it is easy than towing our load all by ourselves.

With one life ending recently in my life, Jerad's Grandma Ceil, and another, mine, still just beginning, I feel like I'm trapped in a time bubble. I feel directionless. There are so many things in life that I have set out to accomplish and in many ways already have. I think that this is the most devastating thing. I feel like I have nothing to work towards. I just do not have the ambition to move forward with personal goals anymore. I think that a lot of this stems from the fact that I am now in a "long term" committed relationship.

It's complicated when you have a companion on the journey, and a whole lot of drama if you end up towing a caravan behing you like many of us do. Jerad has opened up avenues in my life that I did not think were possible at the level we have them at our age. Honestly, the last thing I expected at the age of 25 was to be a homeowner. I just didn't think that I would be doing that at this time. I have without even knowing it, resolved to be happy. I have taken on so many responsibilites for things that I never used to care about at all. I have a daily grind. We have a dog. Dog spelled backwords is God.

I don't really know anything else.

Have a great year and I hope you catch a free ride.

LastManOut

"There is no better time than right now to be happy.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination.
So work like you don't need money.
Love like you've never been hurt, and, Dance like no one's watching. "
- Some really wise person