Torn

So lots of things are going on in my life right now. Things are picking up at the real job and the flower shop is full steam ahead. Not to mention the dog is still not feeling 100%, we are considering the house remodel, and mother's birthday is coming.

Everyday I wake up and the day goes on and by the time I get to the end of it; I'm a nervous, twisted, and totally messed up. The anxiety that builds is crippling. I feel this way not because I have to make choices, it's because there is a lack of choices to make. All I have are options that lead down a very dark road.

The problem is that while I see the changes coming on the horizon, I don't have the patience to wait anymore. It's like the anticipation of not knowing what is going to happen is driving me crazy!!!

It's like I would give anything to just give up and walk away. Maybe then I'd be doing something that I actually want to do.

LastManOut